In class, one focuses on what one does not know. I have learned grammar, cases, and vocabulary, but still the classroom experience has taught me little compared to living in Germany.
Learning should be about optimism. What do you know? What can you say with what you know? How can you build a bridge between your past knowledge and new knowledge? It is a creative process; a fascinating process. A process inevitably riddled with comical, surprising, and profound mistakes.
When I speak in german, I must focus on what I can say, rather than what I cannot. If I try the latter, my mind locks into frustration. Focus on what you know, and look forward to what you will one day learn. Goodnight!
The perception of one’s relationships uncovers how one views himself.
When one of my childhood friends acted with disagreeable conduct, my mother would say, “Oh, she is lacking confidence or she must not have good self-esteem.” While I believe this statement to be especially true in adolescence and unfortunately adulthood, I think it overly generalizes the reasons humans exhibit specific behaviors.
How do you think others perceive you?
It’s an interesting question because you can only answer it from your own perception.
I like people, and I’ve always thought people like me less than I like them. My mother would tell me this is confidence, but I don’t believe it to be. It’s just part of my brain mush. I find the negative faults in myself so unforgivable, while easily forgivable in others. When I project their perception of me, I see through their eyes what I find bad.
I search for purity; maybe through vegetarianism or acts of kindness or complete forgiveness of things that perhaps shouldn’t be forgiven. I find my true flaw is my incapability to forgive my other flaws, not to mention the disservice I give to other people when I assume they see myself how I do. I’m learning to sit in one emotion at a time. My idealist self only wants the good, but there will always be bad.
Oh, I can’t explain things well, but perhaps this is the closest I will get.
I used to post more things like this on my tumblr, but I deleted them for a mix of reasons explained above. The thing is, I crave for people (errrr close friends) to know my personal thoughts, but it’s hard for me to say them. I want to say this, because I’m reeeeally curious if others feel the same? Or how do you think people perceive you? ((and no worries, if you think of me perceiving you I probably definitely really like you :p)
Minds have different mediums, and mine is just not verbal speech. So, I’m going to post this and probably delete it later (future employers?), cuz those bees are teaching me how to buzzzzz.
1) “Take a moment to think of someone you know you love. Bring that person to mind and feel how you love him or her. Keep focusing on that person until you generate a genuine felt-experience of loving.”
2 )“Turn the love toward yourself. Love yourself just the same way you love that person you were thinking of.”
3 )“Feel that love toward something you’ve been afraid is unlovable in yourself. Perhaps you feel a deep hurt or harbor an old fear that you’re unlovable. Love each of those things, just as you would love a child who occasionally makes mistakes. All you need to do is love as much as you can from wherever you are.”
warm here in Slovenia! I am rejoicing for I have made it through my first real winter!! Something about this warm weather makes me throw caution aside with mere spf-15. Something about this warm weather makes me want to grab hold of every dandelion I see. FREE ICE CREAM FOR THE WORLD 2012.
A leak in our hostel’s room turns into an all-expense, alpine-view, country-side stay. Would you believe that I’ve been singing the Sound of Music soundtrack all day?
